If i could write [poetry]

 You look so out of it
Pull it together 
We could love you
Forever and ever

I have so many desires for the future that I worry I've asked too much of the universe when I've done little to deserve it. There are so many people to meet, so many books to read. I want to feel everything, fame, solitude, love, touch and anger so visceral that i pop a vessel. I wanna feel pain and heartache so I know how to illustrate it. I could create something so immaculate people would avoid consuming it because of the mental load it takes.
But I make stupid decisions with my life. I harm my body because something somewhere told me I have to. I say silly things, avoid difficult conversations and I watch parts of my life decay. I exist passively and regret every second. The things I could do if I wasn't so afraid. So bored. The people I could have kept. I wish i were a poet.

The only good cop is a dead one

i'm thinking about the little baby boy, Liam Ramos. five years old in a cute little rabbit hat, dangled by the foot to see if the rest of his family was home. i wonder if he's warm, when or if he'll see his dad again.some things are so inhumane i feel like im dreaming. donald trump thinks every immigrant, US citizen or not is a murderer or rapist - he says that, anyway. I don't believe rape has ever been a touchy subject for that man. He just peddles whatever will keep his supporters happy. Don't pay any mind to the Epstein Files, the real rapists are little hispanic children, apparently.

it's strange to think there was ever a time where i believed things could be done peacefully. and for a country so obsessed wiht protected their right to bear arms, i'm seeing a strange lack of action taken. i understand those opposing ice are typically anti-gun, but i think exceptions to the rule can be made. the only good ice agent is a dead one. the only good cop is a dead one. the only good fascist is a dead one.