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Feb. 3rd, 2026 12:34 pm
cant take myself seriously
I want your breath to
make strange songs as it
glides along the sheets,
or something like that
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Jan. 22nd, 2026 10:00 pm
The only good cop is a dead one
i'm thinking about the little baby boy, Liam Ramos. five years old in a cute little rabbit hat, dangled by the foot to see if the rest of his family was home. i wonder if he's warm, when or if he'll see his dad again.some things are so inhumane i feel like im dreaming. donald trump thinks every immigrant, US citizen or not is a murderer or rapist - he says that, anyway. I don't believe rape has ever been a touchy subject for that man. He just peddles whatever will keep his supporters happy. Don't pay any mind to the Epstein Files, the real rapists are little hispanic children, apparently.
it's strange to think there was ever a time where i believed things could be done peacefully. and for a country so obsessed wiht protected their right to bear arms, i'm seeing a strange lack of action taken. i understand those opposing ice are typically anti-gun, but i think exceptions to the rule can be made. the only good ice agent is a dead one. the only good cop is a dead one. the only good fascist is a dead one.
it's strange to think there was ever a time where i believed things could be done peacefully. and for a country so obsessed wiht protected their right to bear arms, i'm seeing a strange lack of action taken. i understand those opposing ice are typically anti-gun, but i think exceptions to the rule can be made. the only good ice agent is a dead one. the only good cop is a dead one. the only good fascist is a dead one.
Jan. 22nd, 2026 09:33 am
If i could write [poetry]
You look so out of it
Pull it together
We could love you
Forever and ever
I have so many desires for the future that I worry I've asked too much of the universe when I've done little to deserve it. There are so many people to meet, so many books to read. I want to feel everything, fame, solitude, love, touch and anger so visceral that i pop a vessel. I wanna feel pain and heartache so I know how to illustrate it. I could create something so immaculate people would avoid consuming it because of the mental load it takes.
But I make stupid decisions with my life. I harm my body because something somewhere told me I have to. I say silly things, avoid difficult conversations and I watch parts of my life decay. I exist passively and regret every second. The things I could do if I wasn't so afraid. So bored. The people I could have kept. I wish i were a poet.
Pull it together
We could love you
Forever and ever
I have so many desires for the future that I worry I've asked too much of the universe when I've done little to deserve it. There are so many people to meet, so many books to read. I want to feel everything, fame, solitude, love, touch and anger so visceral that i pop a vessel. I wanna feel pain and heartache so I know how to illustrate it. I could create something so immaculate people would avoid consuming it because of the mental load it takes.
But I make stupid decisions with my life. I harm my body because something somewhere told me I have to. I say silly things, avoid difficult conversations and I watch parts of my life decay. I exist passively and regret every second. The things I could do if I wasn't so afraid. So bored. The people I could have kept. I wish i were a poet.
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Jan. 20th, 2026 02:43 pm
I like u so come over rite now!
Happy bday jojo!!! Happy bday treets!!!!!!
Lasr night was sooooo cool . Im a minecraft pro now. I died like 500 times while trying to excavate a lush cave with joey LFMAOAOA but it felt so nice to take it EZ with a cool guy like him. We went crazzzzayyyt
Friends still pmo. I say it wirh love but some people need humbling. Happy ur happy and all but ur makong everyones lives miserable..or maybe i ak just insecure and cant b happy for some people.
I picked off so much of my shellac during a very horrendous irish class. I need to get my nails done anyway, but now i look like an emo.
Im not allowed 2 smoke until next week..actually im getting herbal fags with tv tomorrow along with a trip 2 this cool af art shop shewant to take me to. Eggsiting ! Anyway im not doing BAD cigarettes cuz one per week is my new rule. And im saving it for that awful irish oral exam. The nly uto cure the shame of failure is yummy marlboro golds, wud u believe!
I gotta get home and shower then study...I HATE THE IRISH LANGUAGEEE I HATE IT I HATE IT!!
Also who knew that school was bearable when there's no miserable boy sulking and trying to catch your eye every class u share? Unbearable i am so glad he wasn't in tlday. I wish this was more frequent of a thing. I wish he'd move schools or spmething cyz he is pissing me tf off. At least hes stopped spamming me. Get a grip...thats not nice i hope u get better and also get a grip
Lasr night was sooooo cool . Im a minecraft pro now. I died like 500 times while trying to excavate a lush cave with joey LFMAOAOA but it felt so nice to take it EZ with a cool guy like him. We went crazzzzayyyt
Friends still pmo. I say it wirh love but some people need humbling. Happy ur happy and all but ur makong everyones lives miserable..or maybe i ak just insecure and cant b happy for some people.
I picked off so much of my shellac during a very horrendous irish class. I need to get my nails done anyway, but now i look like an emo.
Im not allowed 2 smoke until next week..actually im getting herbal fags with tv tomorrow along with a trip 2 this cool af art shop shewant to take me to. Eggsiting ! Anyway im not doing BAD cigarettes cuz one per week is my new rule. And im saving it for that awful irish oral exam. The nly uto cure the shame of failure is yummy marlboro golds, wud u believe!
I gotta get home and shower then study...I HATE THE IRISH LANGUAGEEE I HATE IT I HATE IT!!
Also who knew that school was bearable when there's no miserable boy sulking and trying to catch your eye every class u share? Unbearable i am so glad he wasn't in tlday. I wish this was more frequent of a thing. I wish he'd move schools or spmething cyz he is pissing me tf off. At least hes stopped spamming me. Get a grip...thats not nice i hope u get better and also get a grip
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Tiring to look up the nose of someone who cannot stop stroking their ego. Its worse when they mean a lot to you. You're a wonderful friend, but you are not always a nice person. You can say so much when you've got the medication to focus. You're not better than me. You're not better than any of us.
"You think you're stressed? I need to get into real college."
I feel for you, but I'd rather swallow a bullet than hear you complain one more time.
I find it difficult to remain in school. Every day is a matter of who will catch me before I get to the front gate. Since last year I'm sort of a ticking time bomb. I missed one class today + slept through biology. I wanna get better. I need those effing meddssss omfg
watch them not even do anything
8 days to go.............................
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